I don’t know exactly what this is, but at times I feel like I’m on auto pilot. Like time is just moving by, and I’m not really here.One could say “I’m not living in the now”, but I don’t think that’s exactly what it is.Ofcourse I’m not integrated in what people consider “reality”(which is still an illusion) because of my current situation, but even when I’m doing something…I’m still not “here”, like I left.Certain conversations seem small/narrow to me, and I’d be completely detached from it.I feel like my consciousness is vibrating at a different frequency from others(If not most, then all).Before I was completely gone, because of a situation going on when I was away from home, but those isuues from those times have passed, most of it.
It’s as if I’m in another state of consciousness…perhaps that’s what it is. I’m just not fully”in it” like how others are.As if I’m not activated, or maybe the other way around.People prattle, I’ll call it “nothing talk”, at least that’s what it sounds like to me.I get impatient with prattle.What do I want?Why am I rushing?People beating around the bush with things, and I come up with a final conclusion.People just want to talk…I don’t.
Maybe a routine, day-to-day thing causes you to lose touch with what we call reality?But even so, school or work never felt like that.